I don't owe anyone a living :]
My favorite word is AWESOME
Jepon's Baby Daughter, i will be Waiting.
I am different from others. Yes, I am Unique.
I choose My friends so be Lucky if You're One♥
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Good Morning :) Heh! Am not in school. Fever what, remember? Am using brother`s lappy. Lazy to on my computer =.=" anyways, ya! Baby`s not in school also :) He jangkit me, i think? hah! Okay, honestly my mind`s blank. But, i`mma try my best to post as long as possible kay? I wanna talk about my blog song. Kay, i know it`s a stupid topic. But, it`s worth the shot. Rather than nothing to say, am i right? So, live with it. All Again For You - We The Kings. This song means a lot to me. Basically, it all happens when Baby sang it for me. I cried a lot lah sia when Baby sang it. Too much in fact :) You know right, Baby? The way i looked into the meaning of the song makes me feel real bad. Because, despite everything i still took a lot of things for granted. Despite all the apologises, mistakes/wrong-doings were still repeated. Then again, Baby still never leave me &gave up on me. Really, it`s very difficult to find a guy like Baby. * Blessed Me. * It`s not deniable that there`s a lot of ups &downs in our relationship. Too many infact. I really don`t mind about the ups, as it`s something happy. Right? But, the downs :( Without fail, me and Baby will cry. Very badly. It`s okay lah i think? I mean, without all these. I don`t think we`ll be able to understand each other better. Am i right? Basically, am just happy that Baby`s by my side now :) No more 3rd party, no more distractions ^.^ Ya`know, i was reading through all of my old post. Mainly, everything`s about fiebunnysatsat. i`mma prove it to Baby that, me and fie are not compatible. Having a boyfriend, its like the same. Attached or single, its the same for me. Why? He's treating me like garbage. Whenever i ask him to lemme go. He'll always beg. It'll just happen for awhile. After that, it'll come back. Sometimes, i've got the feeling his just making fun of me. Saying that he loves me. But, i know its not true. Why must you lie? Im not stupid, remember that. Its been 9 days since we're together. I've only had 4 days of happiness with you. After we met, everything shattered. You even blamed me for the r/ship you once had with '______' . I dont wanna trash her name. Nor am i tryna trash yr name. Just so you know, when you said that. You really broke my heart into pieces. I didnt feel bad, but .. Yr making others that know think that im a byatxh. Why must you do that? If you want it so much, i'll let you go. It wont be a problem for me. I know yr family dont like me. I dont care. As what some say , Love me for who iam, Not for who iam not. Im sick and tired. How are we gonna last? Iam not saying that, yr at fault. I know both of us are. But, i just dont see why. Whenever i wanna go separately. You will always beg. What's yr motive? Can you please lemme know. I dont wanna waste my time, thinking of everything that's got to do with you. If i know yr not worth my time. I dont hate you, I just hate yr attitude. You kept on making fun of me. Yr always wasting my time. Whenever we talk on the phone. It will always happen. You'll always ask if i love you anot. I will always say , yes. But, when i ask you back, you'll always skip that qns, or pretend you didnt here it. Sometimes, i just dntknw what's wrong with you? What are you tryna do? This is gonna be yr last chance im telling you. I SIMPLY DONT CARE!~ One more crap, and that's it!~ I'd rather it end. Then me shattering in pieces EVERYDAY! :[[[ Im not in the mood. Im crying. I hate this feeling!~ I hate it so much~ Hais, it`ll be shocking aye of why am posting all this up here. But, this was written down last year. So, don`t mind. Am nothing without Boyfriend . I need him so badly ): Feeling superb useless right now . Cant concentrate on anything sia . I AM A STUPID GIRLFRIEND kan kan kan ? * Crying . If i were to predict the future , i wouldnt have argued with him on that day . I menyesal baby , i tak patut bwad you mengamok . I tak patut kurangajar ): Praying that i will get to see Boyfriend ): I just wanna show him that i will wait . Am also praying hard that feelings wont fade while we are apart for some time ): I know i have his brothers-brothers and close friends with me . You guys will be by my side right ? While fhy's inside , kan ? ): Mixed emotions are all around . Some ask me to leave him . Some ask me to stay . Some ask , why am i with this kind of guys , as i deserved better . Which one should i listen to ? I know , people will say , listen to yr heart . Am trying to listen , but its not saying anything ): Haixsh ~ But , HEY ! GUESS WHAT ! WHATEV HAPPENS , AM NOT LETTING HIM GO :D Too bad uy k , sape yg tak suke this r/ship kurng pey psal k ? Cos , am gonna keep his r/ship strong ~ Egat janji kite k , b . Exam starts on Wed , and i havent even start revising . I cant ): I know , am needed to pass in order to get what i want . And i also want Boyfriend to be proud of me . Still remember his words . ' I nak you pass exam you k , i nak you naek sec 3 . Since i da gyni , i tkmu you jady cam i .Lau i dgar you tak naek , i sepak you pey muke b . Faham ?! ' I cant forget those words . Baby , im gonna do my best ~ And , its just fr you . This was also posted last year when fie baru jeh masok. Emo shit jack! :) Fie paiseh eh sebab kuh tak dapt tgu kaw. Mungkin dah takd jodoh. Kuh pon tatawu camaneh ny buleh terjady. Tapi, hraphrap bile kau dah klua. Kau buleh faham eh asal kuh buat nyeh sumeh. Yang kau perlu tawu. Kuh bahagia dng hidup kuh skg, dng Ayid. Hmm, tc eh? Sayang kau! bila aku kesepian hiburlah aku dengan suaramu, bila aku sakit ubati aku dengan kasih sayangmu, jika aku mati jangan mandikan aku dengan airmatamu, bila aku terkubur, kuburlah aku dalam hatimu, dan bila aku tersesat, selamatkanlah aku dengan doamu. Baby, what`s written above. Is for you okay? Go read &Understand. Labels: whatthafuck |